I have wondered how people could express so much anger – anger to spouse, children, co-workers etc. Where does the confidence come from to show that anger and not be afraid that there wouldn’t be repercussions? No one gets so angry as to walk off – forever. No one goes off the handle and says FU to your face? Hmm . . . Haven’t felt the need to express that anger for a long time – but tonight, well, I have hit my proverbial wall.
After many years of accepting that the pattern of “ignoring” my opinion was ok, I quit! No more will I accept that my knowledge and experience of 60+ years is of no value. I am a professor at a College. I get paid for my skill of helping students learn – no, I do not teach! I facilitate their learning. I watch for the “a-ha” moments and that means I can quit presenting and restating the information. The student “got it”!
So why does my mate, my husband of 35+ year, ignore my knowledge, my skill? Why does he feel that when it comes to “training” the uninitiated, that I have no value. A stranger accepts my skills more than my husband or my family. Why?
I believe it comes from the fact that I have not fought for the right to be correct! I haven’t told my family that they are wrong when they say “you don’t know”. Sorry Family! I do know! I am aware of how to teach. I am trained through my Provincial Instructor’s Program from Vancouver Community College to present the material in such a way as the END RESULT IS KNOWLEDGE!!!! How dare they assume that their mundane ways of confusion will present to the student as anything other than a confusion of information!!! Not Knowledge!
Yes, I am angry. I AM FURIOUS! To be so discredited by family is not only unfair, unnice, but infuriating! Next – confrontation.
Here it comes now. . .